Concrete As A Painkiller

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Tracklist:

  • Chloroform

  • Like Salt Needs A Wound

  • You Can’t Light A Candle On The Ocean Floor

  • Concrete As A Painkiller

  • Tears Don’t Fall [Bullet For My Valentine cover]

Lyrics:

“Breathe in, breathe in, baby
let me cover your nose and mouth
breathe in, breathe in, baby
BREATHE IN—
LIGHTS OUT

Chemicals in my lungs, 
All your stories spun
just how
you like them now
victim-blamed and victimized 
suffocate me with all your lies

[spoken] Stuff the rag in my mouth;
bitch, I want to die!

You loved me like chloroform
My head is spinning; I can’t breathe
my vision’s black and I can’t see;
You loved me like
You loved me like

You loved me like chloroform
My head is spinning; I can’t breathe
my vision’s black and I can’t see;
You loved me
You loved me
You loved me like CHLOROFORM!

It’s all gone dark and we lost the spark,
pulmonary edema and a broken heart
Wanna cry?
And say the fault is mine?
I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING 
EVERY SONG MY LUNGS COULD SING

[spoken] Pull me under, siren

I’m sick of friendly-firing
You’re scarred and I admire it
So take me down a notch, baby
Make me your perfect autopsy 

You loved me like chloroform
My head is spinning; I can’t breathe
my vision’s black and I can’t see;
You loved me 
You loved me
You loved me like CHLOROFORM!

I want to be unconscious 
I want to stop choosing this
I’ll let you knock me out and bind my wrists 
THROW ME INTO THE BLACKNESS

YOU LOVED ME
(Did you love me?)
LIKE CHLOROFORM 
(Did you fucking love me?)
(Did you?)
(Breathe in deeper, baby)
LIGHTS OUT!” 
- “Chloroform”, Concrete As A Painkiller (2017)
→written by: Kato

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“What’s the problem now?
Something upset you somehow?
Was it me or something else?
Abandon ship, abandon self.

I don’t want to fight today 
I don’t want to run away
but I always tend to separate 
don’t wanna be the type who’s empty if not in love

the words they never leave my lips
instead I say ‘I’m fucking sick of this’
break our hearts and slit my wrists
I have to push before it comes to shove

I’m so sorry that I can’t change
I’m so sorry I’m set in my ways
I think it’s time we let the sun go down on the days
spent pretending that we
were people we can never be…

(CAN NEVER BE)

If I take a moment to be honest, babe, it’s better that we’re through.
We were both kindling and kerosene alike; burning was all we knew
I used to think you needed me in the way that salt needs a wound
But at the beginning and the end of it? I think that’s the way I needed you.

There’s always something going wrong
The good days never last that long
The misery always pulls too strong 
You never make me feel like I’m enough

We’re both fighting pain with pain
We’re both fighting blame with blame
Now you never call my name
And I can’t keep labeling absence love

(Always something wrong)
I’m not the answer
(I’d drop everything to help her)
I’d drop everything to help you
(But you’d rather)
You’d rather—
REACH FOR SALT FOR THE WOUND

(you made me think that was me)
(you made me think that was me)
(you made me think that was me)
(Are the cuts still burning?)
(I think I’m learning)

If I take a moment to be honest, babe, it’s better that we’re through.
We were both kindling and kerosene alike; burning was all we knew
I used to think you needed me in the way that salt needs a wound
But at the beginning and the end of it? I think that’s the way I needed you.

LIKE SALT NEEDS A WOUND
(ALWAYS SOMETHING WRONG)
LIKE SALT NEEDS A WOUND
(ALWAYS SOMETHING WRONG)

Yeah, if I need to make it hurt more
I’ll reach for you.”
- “Like Salt Needs A Wound”, Concrete As A Painkiller (2017)
→written by: Kato

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“I can’t bring myself to care about
any promises you break
apathy envelopes me; 
doesn’t matter what you destroy or you create

I’ve been laying hollow on the seabed, 
letting rust and water fill my lungs
I know I said I’d be your anchor, baby, 
so drag me through the mud!

LET OUR LOVE DECAY
At 20,000 leagues
MEN ARE ALL THE SAME
Can’t change what you believe 

Improbe Neptunum accusat 
qui iterum naufragium facit
(eheu, amor)
(eheu, amor)

I’m always going overboard 
somehow you’re the one to drown
I’m the weight tied to your ankles
But alone I’m sinking down,
down—
down!

(eheu, amor)

I’m numb to you, you’re sick of me
(I know you can’t be blamed)
Tried to light the fire in my eyes again
(I’m too empty to feed the flame.)

I’ve been laying hollow on the seabed, 
letting rust and water fill my lungs
I know I said I’d be your anchor, baby, 
so drag me through the mud!

You can’t light a candle on the ocean floor
No use for a vigil here; there’s nothing left to drag to shore
Bury me at sea and flee 
to the surface; eheu, amor
(eheu, amor)
(eheu, amor)
(eheu, amor)”
- “You Can’t Light A Candle On The Ocean Floor”, Concrete As A Painkiller (2017)
→written by: Kato

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“I need to (I need to)
get clean of you
get clean of me
I know who here 
is the real disease

(BLEGH)

KILL THE YOU THAT’S INSIDE ME
SLIT MY WRISTS, BREAKING FREE
KILL THE ME THAT’S INSIDE YOU
THE MAN THAT LEFT US BOTH BRUISED

Cut open our love for vivisection 
Which one of us is the INFECTION?

[spoken] Oh, big fucking surprise…

(YEAH)

I turn the shower water up as hot as it’ll get
still my nails are going blue and my knuckles turning red
I can't puke up and wash away all the shit inside my head
BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT I WON’T FUCKING TRY UNTIL I’M DEAD

So here’s my fucking game plan; (I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME MAN)
I’ll chase another high, rail another line
fuck another guy and pull the trigger on my ‘9
Use gunsmoke or concrete as a painkiller 
and I’ll die knowing that I’ve never—
(NEVER—)

I think we buried each other too shallow
we’re staggering the cemetery again
MY HEART’S NOW JUST AS SALLOW AS YOURS HAS ALWAYS BEEN
MEET ME AT OUR HEADSTONES DARLING
PULL THE TRIGGERS IN SYNC AND LET THIS END

or live on without me
YEAH, ACT LIKE IT’S EASY
oh, I know it’s easy
DON’T YOU FUCKING LIE

No one can deny it and I can’t hope to fight it
Follow all the threads back, who’s the problem? I’m it
If given the chance I’ll poison the well
JUST TO DRINK FROM IT MYSELF 

WHAT CAN I DO TO SAVE YOU ALL?

Well here’s my fucking game plan; (I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME MAN)
I’ll chase another high, rail another line
fuck another guy and pull the trigger on my ‘9
Use gunsmoke or concrete as a painkiller 
and I’ll die knowing that I’ve never—
NEVER FUCKING MEANT ANYTHING

(I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME MAN)
WHAT CAN I DO TO SAVE YOU ALL?
Use gunsmoke or concrete as a painkiller 
I CAN SAVE YOU ALL
(Use gunsmoke or concrete as a painkiller)
(I can save you all)
(DON’T YOU FUCKING LIE)”
- “Concrete As A Painkiller”, Concrete As A Painkiller (2017)
→ written by: Kato