Just Let Me See The Dawn

แดŠแดœsแด› สŸแด‡แด› แดแด‡ sแด‡แด‡ แด›สœแด‡ แด…แด€แดกษด
ษช'สŸสŸ า“ษชษดแด… แด€ แดกแด€ส แด›สœส€แดแดœษขสœ แด›สœแด‡ แดแดส€ษดษชษดษข
แด€ สŸษชา“แด‡ า“แดส€ แด›สœแด‡ ษดษชษขสœแด›,
แด€ sสœแด‡สŸแด›แด‡ส€ ษชษด แด›สœแด‡ ษขสŸษชแด›แด›แด‡ส€ แดา“ แด€สŸสŸ แด›สœแด‡sแด‡ สŸษชษขสœแด›s

ษชา“ สแดแดœ สŸแด‡แด› แดแด‡ sแด‡แด‡ แด›สœแด‡ แด…แด€แดกษด
ษช'สŸสŸ า“ษชษดแด… แด€ แดกแด€ส แด›สœส€แดแดœษขสœ แด›สœแด‡ แดแดส€ษดษชษดษข
แด€ สŸษชา“แด‡ า“แดส€ แด›สœแด‡ ษดษชษขสœแด› แด€ษดแด… แด€ แดแด‡แด€ษดษชษดษข ษชษด แด€สŸสŸ แด›สœษชs

ษช'สŸสŸ า“ษชษดแด… แด€ แดแด‡แด€ษดษชษดษข ษชษด แด€สŸสŸ แด›สœษชs


แด‡แด„สœแดแด‡s | ษดแดแด แด‡สŸษชsแด›s

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Something that kinda hits me in a soft spot is the concept of someone giving Kato a mountain lion plushie as a gift, bc the kid needs some softness, needs some softness that represents strength. And while I'm sure he acts for the most part like it's juvenile, like why-would-he-want-this, like it's just some weird trinket taking up space in his room...Well. It's the one thing in his room that's never, ever out of place. He never lets dust accumulate on it. And if during the Bad Nights (the ones where he's scared and young, or where nightmares won't let him rest, or the ones where heโ€™s convinced heโ€™s bad or evilโ€”the nights where he locks his door and sits for twenty minutes with a gun to his head, daring himself to pull the trigger, those nights) he holds that little mountain lion to his chest and cries because heโ€™s desperate to believe that he's loved and thinks maybe that little plushie can prove it to him if he holds it tight enough...I mean, who's to know? 

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Anyway this background killed me and is why this picture took months to complete and now Kato doesn't rly look a lot like himself anymore but oh fuckin' well